Post by rounie on Apr 24, 2010 16:50:12 GMT -5
"I KNOW THE WORLD'S A BROKEN BONE, BUT MELT YOUR HEADACHES CALL IT HOME."
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welcome to Is This an Illusion?.
hi there, ROUNIE, welcome to the site! so i hear you're FEMALE. that's pretty cool. no worries, we won't hold that against you. so you've been doing this crazy rp thing for FIVE YEARS? holy cow! we're really excited about your ONE character! what's your character's name again? MADISON LEVI KLEIN. awesome. oh, how old are you? FIFTEEN? wow. that's pretty old. well, that's it for the rper. time to get to know your character!
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Hello, MADISON LEVI KLEIN.
» Is there anything you would rather be called?
"HMM, WELL EVERYBODY I KNEW BACK HOME CALLED ME LEVI, WHICH IS MY MIDDLE NAME. NO ONE CALLED ME MADISON; IT WAS ALWAYS 'LEVI THIS' AND 'LEVI THAT'. PERSONALLY, I THINK THAT LEVI FITS ME BETTER ANYWAYS. IF YOU DON'T LIKE LEVI, SUCKS FOR YOU. LEVI LEVI LEVI. DRILL IT INTO YOUR SKULL."
» Great, now that we've got that covered. How old are you?
"WELL, I'M NINETEEN YEARS OLD. THERE'S NOT MUCH I CAN SAY OTHER THAN THAT, OTHER THAN I WON'T BE A TEENAGER FOR MUCH LONG ANYMORE. "
» I see, and you're in what member group?
"NEW SURVIVORS."
» You know, has anyone ever told you that you look exactly like...?
"BECKY LOU FILLIP? MHM, I GOT THAT A LOT BACK HOME."
» Thanks! Slipped my mind. Now, do you know the super secret code word?
"admin edit"
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Let's talk about your personality.
» What are a few of your favorite things?
"WELL, FIRST OFF, I LOVE PHOTOGRAPHY. I WAS NEVER GREAT IN SCHOOL, AND I JUST DRIFTED TO CAMERAS AND SUCH. IT FELT NATURAL. I WANTED TO GO TO ART SCHOOL. ALSO, I LOVE CATS. I LIKE BEING DIFFERENT, AND SOME PEOPLE AVOID ME BECAUSE OF MY INDIVIDUALITY, BUT SCREW THEM. MY FAVORITE FOOD HAS ALWAYS BEEN STRAWBERRIES, MY FAVORITE PLACE HAS ALWAYS BEEN IN THE SUN, AND MY FAVORITE PEOPLE HAVE ALWAYS BEEN MY FRIENDS. "
»That's interesting. Is there anything you absolutely dislike?
"I COMPLETELY HATE DOGS; THEY'RE HORRIBLE CREATURES. PLUS, MY MOM HAD A DOG. SO DOGS ARE JUST, SHIT. TERRIBLE. BUT ANYWAYS. I HATE PEOPLE WHO THINK THAT THEY'RE TOO GOOD FOR ME. I ALSO DISLIKE BEANS. AND I'M ALLERGIC TO COCONUTS, SO...HAHA. OH, AND IT'S NOT LIKE I DON'T LIKE MY SCARS, I'M JUST ASHAMED OF THEM. I DON'T HIDE THEM OR ANYTHING, THEY TELL A STORY, SO. THERE'S ALSO NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT THEM- THEY'RE APART OF ME. "
» Hm, what is your greatest fear?
"MY GREATEST FEAR? WELL, THAT'S AN EASY ONE. ACTUALLY, I HAVE MANY FEARS. BUT THEN AGAIN, WHO DOESN'T? HMM, FUCK. THE BIGGEST ONE I WOULD SAY IS THAT I'LL DIE AND NOT HAVE LIVED MY LIFE TO ITS FULLEST. I'M SCARED THAT ONE DAY THE END WILL JUST SUDDENLY COME. I'M SCARED OF DYING, AND ALL OF THE 'WHAT IF'S'. IT ALSO FREAKS ME OUT TO THINK ABOUT MY SECRET EVER BEING REVEALED. NOT BECAUSE OF WHAT RANDOM-ASS PEOPLE WILL THINK OF ME, BUT BECAUSE OF HOW MY FRIENDS WILL REACT."
» Yeah, that is scary. Do you have any dreams for the future?
"YES, I DO. I HAVE ALWAYS DREAMED OF GOING TO ART SCHOOL AND MAJORING IN PHOTOGRAPHY, AND THEN WORKING FULL TIME AS A PHOTOGRAPHER. I ALSO WANT TO FIND AN AMAZING BOYFRIEND, AND SOME TIME AFTER THAT I WANT TO START A FAMILY. NOT A BIG ONE, THOUGH. MAYBE ONE, NO MORE THAN TWO KIDS. "
» Wow, I hope you succeed. Can you tell me a little bit about yourself?
"SOME PEOPLE CALL ME DIFFERENT. I SEE IT AS ME BEING AN INDIVIDUAL THOUGH. A LOT OF PEOPLE MISUNDERSTAND ME, ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY DON'T KNOW ME OR HAVE JUST MET ME. THEY THINK THAT I'M WEIRD, AND THAT I BEAT TO MY OWN DRUM. AND YES, THAT'S TRUE. I AM MY OWN DRUMMER. I DO WHAT I WANT AND I DON'T GIVE A FUCK WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK ABOUT ME AND MY ACTIONS. IF THEY DON'T LIKE IT, THEY CAN LOOK THE OTHER WAY. I TRY NOT TO BE LOUD AND CAUSE A RUCKUS, BUT SOMETIMES I GET OUT OF HAND. NORMALLY THOUGH, I'M A SINCERE, MOSTLY QUIET PERSON. BUT THIS DOESN'T MEAN THAT I DON'T HAVE AN OPINION. I HAVE ONE, A VERY STRONG ONE, AND I LET IT BE HEARD. I THINK OF MYSELF AS AN ARTIST. IF I HAVE A CAMERA IN MY HANDS I MOST LIKELY WILL NOT BOTHER ANYONE. BACK HOME, MY FRIENDS KNEW ME LIKE THE BACK OF THEIR HAND. I NEVER HELD ANYTHING BACK TO THEM, AND THEY KNEW ALL ABOUT ME AND MY SECRET. AND THEY ACCEPTED ME. WE WOULD DRINK TOGETHER. THAT'S JUST ONE THING WE HAD IN COMMON. I LOVE A GOOD DRINK. DRINKING WAS ONE OF MY COPING MECHANISMS BACK BEFORE THE PLANE CRASH, ANOTHER BEING CUTTING. BUT I GOT OFF TRACK, SO ANYWAYS. HERE, THOUGH, I'M NOT SURE HOW PEOPLE WOULD REACT AND EVEN HOW I WILL OPEN UP TO THEM. I'M NOT EVEN SURE IF I'LL OPEN UP TO ANY OF THEM. TRUST COMES HARD IN MY BOOK, AND USUALLY TAKES A LONG TIME BECAUSE OF MY PAST. THAT BEING SAID, I AM A VERY AFFECTIONATE PERSON IF YOU LET ME. ONCE YOU AND I ARE ON GOOD TERMS, I'LL TREAT YOU LIKE YOU'RE THE WORLD. I FIND MYSELF TO BE PRETTY DAMN LOYAL, AND IF YOU PROVE THAT TO ME YOU'LL HAVE ME FOR A GOOD WHILE. ON THE OTHER HAND, IF YOU BETRAY ME OR LIE TO ME, YOU'LL HAVE TO PUT UP WITH ME GIVING YOU SHIT AND BEING YOUR ENEMY FOR AS LONG AS I KNOW YOU. I LIKE BEING IN THE COMPANY OF MY FRIENDS, YET I LIKE BEING ALONE AS WELL. I DON'T MIND TAKING WALKS BY MYSELF, I ACTUALLY QUITE ENJOY IT. I HAVE A WILD IMAGINATION, BUT I KEEP THAT TO MYSELF, USUALLY. HMM... ACTUALLY, I CAN GET PRETTY WILD JUST IN GENERAL. BUT I USUALLY KEEP THAT TO MYSELF, TOO. HAHA. "
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So far so good. Now for history.
» So tell me, where are you from? What did you think of it?
"I'M ORIGINALLY FROM NEWCASTLE UPON TYNE, ENGLAND. THAT'S TOO HUGE A NAME, ANYWAYS, SO PEOPLE JUST CALL IT NEWCASTLE. I WAS BORN THERE, TO MY PARENTS- BOTH ENGLISH. SHORTLY AFTER I TURNED ONE THOUGH, WE MOVED TO THE STATES. THE STATE OF MAINE. WE BOUGHT A SINGLE STORY HOUSE IN THE CITY OF WESTBROOK, AND WE MADE A HAPPY LITTLE LIFE. MAINE WAS DECENT- AND I DON'T REMEMBER ENGLAND, BECAUSE I WAS SO YOUNG. "
» Do you have any other family? Parents? Siblings? Extended? What do you think about them?
"I'M AN ONLY CHILD. MY DAD -PETER BANKS KLEIN- DIED OF CANCER WHEN I WAS EIGHT. MY MOM AND I COULDN'T AFFORD TO PAY FOR OUR HOUSE IN WESTBROOK, SO WE HAD TO MOVE. WE MOVED INTO A APARTMENT ON THE OTHER SIDE OF TOWN, AND THINGS WERE HARD EVER SINCE. MY MOM, KENDALL RUBY KLEIN, AND I STARTED TO FIGHT, AND THINGS KEPT GOING DOWNHILL. MY MOM ADOPTED A GOLDEN RETRIEVER WHICH SHE NAMED CODY, AND SHE TREATED THE DAMN DOG BETTER THAN SHE TREATED ME. WHILE I HAD ALWAYS LOVED MY DAD, I HAD ALWAYS DESPISED MY MOM. KENDALL KLEIN HAD BEEN DEPRESSED EVER SINCE MY DAD DIED. SHE HAD BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH DEPRESSION, AND SHE SPIRALED INTO A DEEP, BLACK HOLE. I TURNED TO CUTTING TO DEAL WITH THE PAIN, BECAUSE I KNEW I WAS LOSING HER- THE ONLY FAMILY I REALLY HAD LEFT. WHEN I TURNED EIGHTEEN- NOW FREE TO LIVE BY MYSELF AND SUCH- I YEARNED FOR FREEDOM AGAIN. I WAS SICK AND TIRED WITH EVERYTHING HAVING TO DO WITH MY MOM.... SHE HAD BEEN THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE FOR A LONG TIME, AND SHE TRIED TO KILL HERSELF TWO TIMES BEFORE SHE FINALLY SUCCEEDED. I HAD BEEN A FEW MONTHS OLDER THAN AN EVEN EIGHTEEN YEARS, AND NOW I LIVE BY MYSELF. THERE HAD BEEN NO QUESTIONS- IT HAD BEEN SUICIDE."
» What is your worst memory/memories?
"MY WORST MEMORY IS A TIME PERIOD. IT HAPPENED AFTER MY FATHER'S DEATH. MY CUTTING STARTED FROM WHEN I WAS THIRTEEN AND STRETCHED A LONG FOUR YEARS UNTIL I WAS SEVENTEEN AND I COULD FINALLY SEE MY WAY OUT OF THIS NEVERENDING TUNNEL. I NEVER CUT DEEP ENOUGH TO DIE, AND I ALWAYS CLEANED MYSELF UP WELL. CUTTING RELEASED THE PAIN I HAD BOTTLED UP INSIDE OF ME, AND IT FELT GOOD TO BE IN CONTROL OF SOMETHING, FINALLY. IT MADE ME REALIZE I WAS STILL ALIVE. I HID MY SCARS WHEN I WAS IN MIDDLE SCHOOL, AND WHEN I ENTERED HIGH SCHOOL. BUT MY SOPHOMORE YEAR, WHEN I GAINED THE TRUST OF A FEW SELECT PEOPLE, I LET THEM IN. MAYBE I WAS REACHING OUT FOR HELP- AND THEY TRIED HELPING ME. (KENDALL NEVER DID. I NEVER HID MY SCARS AT HOME. BUT, THAT WAS KENDALL FOR YOU. SHE NEVER EVEN NOTICED, I BET.) BUT IT WAS NEVER ENOUGH. I ALWAYS KEPT AT IT. IT'S AMAZING I DIDN'T FUCKING DIE. "
» What is your best memory/memories?
"MY BEST MEMORY HAS DEFINITELY GOT TO BE WHEN I WAS SEVEN, AND MY DAD TOOK ME FOR ICE CREAM AND BOWLING ON A COOL DECEMBER MORNING, CLOSE TO CHRISTMAS. KENDALL HADN'T AGREED WITH IT -AND I DIDN'T HATE HER BACK THEN- BUT WE HAD GONE ANYWAYS, MY DAD SAYING THAT THIS WAS THE BEST TIME TO EAT ICECREAM; IN THE COLD. I HAD AGREED, SHAKING MY HEAD YES EAGERLY, MY HAIR SWINGING ALL AROUND. WE LEFT AROUND NOON AND DIDN'T GET BACK TILL FIVE. FOR ME, IT FELT LIKE FOREVER. I LOVED THAT DAY. I STILL REMEMBER WHAT I ORDERED- TWO SCOOPS OF VANILLA ICE CREAM WITH HOT FUDGE AND TOPPED WITH GUMMY BEARS."
» Where are you now? What are you doing with your life?
"WELL THIS IS KIND OF A SILLY QUESTION. I'M ON THIS ISLAND, WITH ALL THESE PEOPLE I DON'T KNOW, WITH A BUSTED UP PLANE SITTING IN THE WATER THAT'S NOW RENDERED USELESS. I WAS ON THAT PLANE BECAUSE I WAS TAKING A TRIP TO EUROPE TO GET SOME FINAL SHOTS FOR MY PORTFOLIO SO I COULD TURN IN MY BEST WORK TO SOME ART SCHOOLS. BUT NOPE, NOT ANYMORE. NOW I'M STUCK. WE ALL ARE."
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this app was made by BROOKE of caution. please do not steal this app. feel free to ask about using it somewhere else if you like it. the lyrics at the top of the app are from Northern Downpour by Panic at the Disco.
